Do Not Wait for Inspiration

Waiting for inspiration is also part of the effort to make sense of the pain we endure. Yet sometimes, like a grape fallen to the ground, we may fade away without becoming nourishment for any living being, without blending into the earth and opening a door to new life. Not every effort finds a response, and not every wound leads us to the secret of truth.

We may not reach the knowledge of the heart. We may not be granted a share of the knowledge of the unseen. The pain we endure is not a sign that we deserve this or that we are chosen. For such deep gifts do not emerge through the patience of a child waiting for a reward, but through the resilience shown while changing, transforming, falling and rising along the way. Perhaps they never emerge at all.

That is why both the purpose and the means must be clear. Being on the path is valuable, but it is not always enough. To do justice to that path means to change inwardly and to carry the truth slowly, layer by layer. This is often far from easy.

And after becoming acquainted with such knowledge, continuing to live in the world as it is may be the heaviest burden, the quietest yet deepest test.

Would you ever want to be in Hızır’s place, for instance? To live at a level of consciousness where there is no one who could understand you. To cope with that loneliness, and even with the sheer weight of that thought alone.

Do not wait for inspiration. When the time comes, it will find you. Everyone comes with their portion and receives only as much as their vessel can hold.